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2005-11-18 - 11:13 p.m.
why does it bother me that he goes out with his friends...i mean i'm allowed out with mine. maybe its because i don't trust them...because i don't know them. they've never excepted me...and my friends haven't excepted him but they know how i love him and that is enough for them to don't do anything. my friends protect me they only want what is best and what keeps me happy and they all know that i found that in him. yeah i know i messed up once with one of mym closest friends but he knows how i feel for him...and i know how he cares for his girl. although they where not together when we did what we did...i couldn't face her if they were. i mean i didn't mean to hurt him although i haven't beauce he doesn't know about anything...for the best. i mean his friends seem nice enough but they don't really seem to like me and never really have. who knows which ones of them like him and want it to be more then friendship...and how do i know they wont try something??? i can't tell whats going through there heads. so i don't trust anyone and i'm a little paranoid but thats nothign new adfter all the times i've been burned yeah most of those times i was playing with mattches but how do i know that i'm not once again??? i don't and i can't not until its too late.
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